Okay, so I know it's been a long time since I've posted about male yanderes despite the fact that this was supposed to be a yandere blog. But come on! There are a lot more things to talk about, lol. Like Levi Ackerman for example! Yeah, and since the second season is coming soon (OH YAASSS!), I've decided to write one of the recurring stories in my mind.
I contemplated posting this oneshot on wattpad or quotev or wherever, but I thought that I actually have a blog so why not just put everything there? So anyway, I'm counting on you guys to make this fanfic known throughout the fandom. Lol, if it suites your tastes anyway. So, without further ado, here it is!! (Btw, can you play a sad song while reading this one? lol)
FIRST AND LAST WORDS
It has already turned into a
tradition. When the clock strikes twelve, I make my way towards the forest,
miles away from the Scouting Legion’s cabin. I’d run and run, occasionally
closing my eyes and feeling the cold wind on my face. Even if I feel so sleepy,
or even if my legs ache from training, I’d still run with all my might. Run
towards where he was always waiting.
Levi was always the first one
to arrive. I’d always catch him sitting on the biggest branch of the highest
tree, staring silently at the stars twinkling above him. I’d gaze at him from
below for a while before deciding to climb up there. And as I took my position
beside him, I knew that this night would be like the other nights. No words
would be uttered. No “Hello”. No “How are you?” Nothing. It would be just the
two of us watching the dark blue sky in silence.
I’ve already thought things
through before. Was there really any purpose in meeting up like this? Does this
even signify something? I know I love
him, and I know he loves me. But he’s
never actually said it and neither did I. We’ve never had small talks. We’ve
never made each other laugh. We’ve never made each other cry. The only thing
both of us have is this… this silence.
Only when I learned of the
death of Levi’s squad did I realize something—that the biggest problem of my
relationship with him was fear. It
has always been fear.
Feeling Levi’s presence beside
me, I understood all too well the emotions he was feeling. We are both afraid
of what is to come if we pursue this relationship. We are both afraid of the
dread of losing someone. We are both afraid of going back into the walls alone,
without the other by our side. We are afraid of the future, afraid of being
left alone.
I felt a tear run down my
cheek and held back a sob. But Levi, as observant as he is, has noticed. And although
he only gave me a glance, I knew—I knew that he himself had been trying to hold
back the emotions this heavy atmosphere is creating. I knew that even the
humanity’s strongest couldn’t fight the feeling of helplessness when it comes
to the person you care about.
Levi then stood up, signaling that
this “tradition” is about to end for today. And just like any other midnights,
I expected him to just look at me for a moment, climb down the tree and then
finally walk away without even looking back.
But this time around, he did.
“Goodbye”, Levi said, with a tone of finality in his voice and deep
regret in his eyes. This is the last
time, his face seemed to say.
And as he walked away, his
footsteps heavy against the ground, I realized that “Goodbye” would be the
first and last word that would be ever uttered in our “tradition”. And even
though it hurts, I knew that it was for the best. For what is love that couldn’t
even conquer fear? Is it still love? At least, even if our love didn’t last
forever, the moon would. And it would always remain as a witness of a love that
could have been.
Qiara's note:
Oho!!! So it's done! It's really short isn't it? I seemed to have lost patience in writing long stories (I used to in highschool). And should I say that I was pretty much heartbroken on my own writing? Lol. Anyway, Levi is rumored to be seen shirtless on the second season! Banzaiii!!! Although I actually might have already seen everything. *Cough* Yaoi *Cough*
Thank you for reading this guys! And by the way, I have added a new "Fanfictions" tab in the blog! Hope you visit it from time to time!
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